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More rain.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 15:48:51 GMT

Haha,
sometimes we just don't really know how to react to certain situations
most of the time, that will just leave me speechless...perhaps its in the silence that i find comfort.
just felt that i failed in some ways or another. thats a pretty damn sucky feeling if you ask me...
Currently,
not knowing how to move on from there.

Please rain?
TGIF, not.

i'm moody sad and empty, and i don't want to be.

Breakouts!

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 15:35:57 GMT

I feel utterly hideous right now.
I feel "The Armageddon Vibe"...
I feel like baking apple-puffs & drinking apple tea
I feel like snuggling in the bed while the rain/thunder/lightning goes boomz
I feel like a thousand miles away from everyone

alright, i blame The P.M.S ! HAHAHA

Love,
S.

Radical Change.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 15:47:04 GMT

I'm in need of something radical and change sounds pretty good to me :)

I'm sick of being a bitch to everyone.
I'm sick of quarreling over "silly-issues" with you
I'm sick of judging people based on what i chose to see and not seeing anything beyond that.
I'm sick of being superficial
I'm sick of having people saying "Chill~"
I'm sick of being angsty
I'm sick of being impatient

When did i ever start disliking the world, and the people. I'm morphing into some morbid anti-social geek, secretly hating the world and wishing that it'd end soon and that everyone should seriously die because they're just being plain stupid. My brain's just kinda morphed into something overtime, and I-DON'T-LIKE-IT.

So, this calls for a change. Like it or not,
something for the better :)

Nothing much, i just feel inspired and i can't wait to be transformed, through Him.
I love my God.
& i love people that play a part in my life. :)

Sq's birthday is coming up and i think i should do something nice for once since our 3 years of friendship and being my first "best-friend" in school. I know, i sound really pathetic....

Love,
S.

Love,

Monopoly pieces

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 12:46:19 GMT

This was the pretty leaf that i plucked ytd
After school today, Macs for ice cream with R. near her place
it felt good to be laughing and talking over food, even though we all know that the food itself is damn unhealthy and everything, but screw it cause it just felt really good :)

Initial plan was to go for a swim today, but sadly, R.'s favourite weather totally spoils my plan!
Nonetheless, Jw saved the day by helping me pack my wardrobe.
It was really hard work (i swear). Looking at my much neater wardrobe now, we really did a pretty awesome job
Yay for us :)

Anyways, i've been eating like a pig recently...I've got a feeling the bloody P. is coming up...
OHWELLS exercise it is!
I'm feeling retardedly sleepy...

HUGS&KISSES
S.

Fyp's a bitch in disguise.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:51:12 GMT

I totally, officially, detest FYP .
Nonetheless, i shall believe God and trust that something good will come outta it.
Think. big picture.

I hate it when i start blabbering stuff, especially when i'm trying to phrase whats in my heart into words...Today, i plucked this 7 pretty puny leaves of a stalk thing...Sadly i don't really have a camera to share a picture that pretty plant but yea, that's kinda like a reminder, that the earth is still filled with pretty little things that one fail to notice.

Jw failed to wake up for school today and was trapped at home cause it rained for one hour(only) and he refused to bring the "unfold-able" umbrella to school cause its hideous...
hahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha :) PRETTY FUNNY IF YOU ASK ME
i love you baby.

Love,
S.

You gotta first, Believe...

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 17:11:33 GMT

So, sunday was kinda fun :)
Church was anointing, i didn't know there's a difference between
"I believe IN God"
&
"I believe God"

Somehow, Believing In something always sets a certain degree of separation...
I'm not sure how everyone else perceives but that's how I feel.
Its the same when it comes to believing someone and believing In someone....isn't it?

Ever wondered how do words get imprinted in your heart?
"First you talk about it (the mouth)...
Then you meditate on it (the brain)...
Slowly, but EVENTUALLY (the whole digestion process)...it'd end up in your heart...
THEN you'd realize that you're actually a changed person, from the heart!"

Alright, i know i kinda suck at explaining myself, especially at such hour...
but i hope that anyone of you that's reading this will get my point.

I think we're hot like that, or maybe not.
but that cracks me up at this unearthly hour, seriously....

Old Airport Road after church was awe-some :)

I love you baby
hugs&kisses

PS: i miss you Ly

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 04:26:48 GMT

It takes more than just wanting to do something...
This is tougher than i thought it'd be.

In need of some sort of miracle
& that takes a whole lot of faith, for something that seem almost impossible.

Singing to your heart song.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:28:38 GMT

I had 3 consecutive nights with little or no sleep, the best part?
Dragging my zombie self to school.
Reason?
Don't ask.

So...i've been enjoying school but TGIF
I really need to save, been telling myself that but my account seem to be suffering from a major case of inflation ):
i have no idea how/why/where all the money went ! urgh, i really need to learn how to mange my finance more efficiently cause now its anything but that. SUGGESTIONS, ANYONE?
(i really don't think anyone ever reads this little space of mine... but anyhows, that doesn't matter!)
I kinda like talking to myself, therapeutic in a way :)

Im guessing its autumn now?
where the leaves starts changing color, something that we'd never experience since its summer all year long.
I never really liked autumn because there's this pretty depressing aura about it.
The feeling of a closure, the feeling of life slowly fading away...
I don't like that fragility of life.
Oh ! but i do love the different hues of earth colors blending on the path beneath the shedding trees though :)
its really pretty, and i've always heard of how "crunchy" it sounds when its being trampled.

Then again, thats my perspective from "far away" ...
Perhaps it'd change once i have the chance to experience it !

xoxo,
S.

Cookie Monster

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:57:54 GMT

I splurged.
But it was all worth it and I'm happy loving my new Ipod, it really looks like a cookie monster dressed in an elmo suite...
so, school's been pretty-interesting so far, and i believe everyone would agree that life without FYP is way awesome.
its 2am, and i need to sleep. Lesson's at 8am :)

Swimming tomorrow !
Love,
S.

First Day of the Last Semester In School

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:38:22 GMT

So...School term officially started and it was pretty alright ?
Love the company of the bunch :)
I can't believe i managed to wake up at 6.30am today...

& yea...The Happy stuff,

Jw was really sweeeeet, he came over after school to wait for my lecture to end. Sat through the lecture and did a quiz on plagiarism. Constantly laughing at the lecturer but i thought i felt sorry for him cause he seemed pretty nice ): repeat, "Ti-sue" UHUH, now that caused an uproar in the lecture theater this afternoon...

"Prawn-Fishing" @ Bottle tree park, i got to play my swing & we caught 4 pathetic prawns in 1 hour. Well...we only had One rod and i guess there wasnt much prawns left in the puny pond...

Chilli Crab for dinner...waaay sinful but satisfying. Actually, that totallly made me not feel like eating crab for the next one month?

Mom called...naggy as usual but nontheless...miss you

I really need an Ipod SOON. Life without "portable music" feels really quiet and empty, besides, train rides took forever...without the ipod, i miss the old one that jeremy gave me 2 years ago ): shizz.

I love you all for reading this longish and wordy post with absolutely no concrete content in it ..

xxoo,
Yq.